Welcome to the SEASONS Blog Tour @ErnestineRose25 #4WillsPub #RRBC

 

Reflection

 

There I was, just minding my own business

Doing all the things I thought I was supposed to do.

I ate fruits and vegetables,

Even juiced and detoxed sometimes.

I exercised.

Four laps around the lake, or three miles on the treadmill

To no avail.

And every summer I went to the clinic

So that cold machine

Could squish my ninnies

In unfathomable pain.

You know it, the mammogram slam.

So relieved when it let go

And I could breathe again.

 

I gave up everything

That was supposed to be a threat:

Microwave popcorn,

Barbecue on the grill,

Even bologna sandwiches.

I sold my car

So the smog wouldn’t get me.

I gave up my summer tan.

I gave up smoking, too, all kinds,

Paid money for a newer house

Less chance of asbestos poisoning.

I run from gamma rays and alpha particles. I read labels 24/7.

 

But still. . .

On that last check-up,

Some abnormality,

A pattern they couldn’t make out.

“Why me, Lord?” I asked Him.

“Does it run in the family?” he said.

Two aunts, dead, two years apart.

He nodded but didn’t say a word.

So here we are.

“What next?” was my first question.

“Where do we go from here?”

“The usual paths, chemo and surgery.”

“No.” I said, before he could get it all out.

“Early detection is half the fight.”

“No!” I yelled louder this time.

He cocked his head and looked at me strange,

Unaccustomed to being challenged.

 

“No,” I said, softer this time.

“I won’t. I’ve seen what that can do.”

“But your life. . . “

“My life is determined by a Higher Power.

I won’t have it taken from me.

I’ve seen the effects of chemo. . .

Sick. Pain. Wasting away. No energy. No hair.”

“But if it can save your life. . .”

“It can’t. Only He can.”

“Does this mean you’re rejecting treatment?”

No. It means I’m rejecting YOUR treatment.”

And I went home and cried.

 

I thought about it, long and hard.

I don’t want the life or death my aunts had,

Life oozing out of my pores for months.

Unliving life, not living it.

I want to be me.

All of me, preferred,

But most of me if that’s not possible.

Hmph.

I could stand to lose some weight anyway.

And who doesn’t like to shop?

And if he doesn’t love me without them,

He didn’t deserve me in the first place.

So I called the office and made an appointment.

 

He was glad I called.

He started his campaign again.

“The protocol—“

I cut him off.

“The protocol,” I said, “is research.

Find out what’s best for me.

In the meantime, I’ll do my own due diligence.

There are survivors all over the world

Who don’t depend on hospital policies,

Or big drug companies building up their profits.

There are doctors taking chances,

Really trying to find a cure.

So you do your thing, and I’ll do mine.

And if my way doesn’t work,

I’ll meet you in the OR.”

 

So I did. My own research, that is.

Everything from mushrooms to peroxide.

Naturopaths with great track records,

And waiting lists four miles long.

It would take weeks, months even

Just to get in for an exam.

And I didn’t have that kind of time.

And don’t even think about insurance.

What little I had wouldn’t cover experiments,

Not to mention a pre-existing condition.

So I lifted my eyes again and said,

“Why me, Lord?”. And He smiled.

And the words I heard but did not see were

“This will only make you stronger.”

 

So I gathered my strength, my faith,

And my determination to live and go on loving.

I walked to the mirror

And took a good, hard look.

“I’ll miss you guys,” I said to my image.

“We had some great times, you and me.

But the time has come to part our ways.

I want to live.

And I don’t want my life compromised

With worry, pain, or weakness.”

“I want to live!” is the last thing I said

Before counting to ten and I was out.

Not down for the count, but out for the moment.

I’d come to terms with who I am

And who I would become.

Why?

I want. . .

To live!

 

 

 

 

 Ernestine Rose,

                                                                                       October, 2013

 

 

Author Bio:  Ernestine Rose grew up on the west side of Chicago during the turbulent 50’s and 60’s. Adopted by an older couple, she spent a great deal of time as a child reading and participating in dance and drama club activities in school. Bradley University and the University of Dallas prepared her for a successful career as a teacher of English, speech and theater in Peoria and Fort Worth, where she earned numerous educator awards.

As a retired public school teacher and mother of four sons, she made her debut as an author with the publication of three books: 7 Tips for A Successful Marriage, Raising the Roses, and Tales from the Family Tree, all in 2012.  She later produced a romance novel, Monday Morning Blues. Her most recent work reflects her experience as a caretaker and widow, Seasons: My Journey through Grief. Inspired by Toni Morrison and Alice Walker, her focus in both writing and theater is on the power of language, love, and family. Follow her on Facebook, Twitter, and her website.

 

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Welcome to “THE SLEEPING ONE” Blog Tour! @KarlJMorgan #4WillsPub #RRBC

Karl Morgan Bio

With a long career in finance and as author of almost twenty books, I like to say that words and numbers are my life.

I have had a lifelong fascination with stories in the science fiction and fantasy genres, whether it was the Tom Swift novels by Victor Appleton I read as a young boy, or television like Lost in Space and Star Trek. More recently, I have devoured film series like Star Wars, Harry Potter, and Lord of the Rings. That fascination is combined with a keen interest in cosmology, astrophysics, quantum physics, and spirituality.

That quirky combination along with the fantasy genre allows me to craft stories that reinforce the importance of family, friendship, and love. The protagonists must overcome incredible danger and challenges to survive their journeys, but eventually end up on top. It goes without saying that as a finance guy, my life has been less action-packed than my characters (thank goodness).

With Carl Prescott and The Sleeping One, I ventured back to comfortable territory. Many of my stories reinforce our direct connection to the Divine. While that is an element of this story, the sequels feature that relationship to a much greater extent. That element in my stories is an homage to what I believe really matters in this life.

I am the son of an Air Force pilot and as such, I have lived in many places, never for more than four years at a time. Thankfully, as an adult, I have lived in Chula Vista, CA for the past thirty-seven years. I met and married Aida, the love of my life, thirty years ago. Our grown children have made us grandparents four times over. It is a blessing to be around such wonderful parents and children.

My new goal is life is my stories. I hope you can follow me on this new adventure.

Character Interview- Professor Bertrand Aloysius Thorndike VII

KM- Professor, thank you for taking the time to talk today.

BAT- I am happy to be here. Please call me Bert.

KM- Thank you, Bert. Your family plays a major role in this book. Tell us about the school’s founder after whom you are named.

BAT- It is difficult to know much about one’s five times great grandfather. He did found this version of the school, but it was not the first or last. Before the end of the first millennium, spiritual education was quite normal and schools were plentiful. Around the time my ancestor was born, the Catholic Church began to eradicate those schools by linking them to Satan. The Church wanted to be seen as the sole arbiter of religious education. It is recorded that my ancestor was also the first verified holder of the Invisible Hand talent in more than a thousand years. Shortly thereafter, the school he attended was burned to the ground. The survivors started this school on an island that is now part of the nation of Denmark, out of the way of prying eyes and zealous priests.

KM- Did most of the students and faculty move too?

BAT- That is impossible to know. Obviously, enough did to reconstitute a school.

KM- The school in now in the Azores. When did that happen?

BAT- Around 1500AD. The island off mainland Denmark was not suitable for a growing institution. As well, their neighbors were not happy with the settlement of what they considered witches and wizards so close to their homes. Eventually, a small island in the mid-Atlantic became our home. Other than the few workers who help at the institution, we are invisible to the outside world.

KM- You son is heavily featured in this book and series in general. What would you like to say about him?

BAT- First, since so many have the same name, we tend to use the number instead. One Bert talking about his father Bert or son Bert would be confusing. I am afraid that in this tale, Eight is not a good son. I hope one day you can tell his full story.

KM- Yes, that is highlighted in book three.

BAT- Thank you. Due to an unfortunate set of circumstances for which I take full responsibility, my son left Thorndike to join the Masterson Academy. As you know, there has always been animosity between the two schools. Let us say that feeling is on full display throughout this story. As well, there is something wrong at Masterson these days. The hatred between the two schools is worse than ever before, well, for a least a few centuries. I just cannot put my finger on the cause. It seems most sinister.

KM- That is certainly true. Hopefully, Carl Prescott and his friends help resolve it.

BAT- Perhaps, but this resentment among the schools is older than time. There are always those who choose to use their gifts for self-gratification and gain. I am not certain a few new students can ever change that.

KM- You could be right, Bert. Before we close, do you have any questions for me?

BAT- Yes I do. As you know, I am over one hundred years old. Do you plan to retire me soon? I wouldn’t mind, you know. Perhaps I could retire on the other island where my grandchildren live?

KM- Perhaps one day, Bert. You continue to play a pivotal role in books two and three. I think the presence of seasoned adults like you, Alistair, and Alex are needed to keep the students moving in the right direction.

BAT- That’s totally fair. Thank you for inviting me.

 

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Twitter handle: @karljmorgan

 

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